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If, for example, the sun is really bright, and in my eyes I will get annoyed and a bit irritated. Not really angry, however. If there's a lot of talking, then I'll get very angry, and eventually sad, typically a mixed feeling of both appearing later. I will go completely nuts. Not kidding. I'll scream "Shut up!" a million times, and it only hurts more when others see how upset I am, yet continue to be loud. One reason I don't like school. Most of the people there are loud, and they act like complete idiots, despite many of them getting good grades...
Also hate school due to extreme anxiety. I rarely talk to any teachers. I'll talk to other people at times, if I'm manic or just in the mood to, but usually I'm a bit quiet, except with friends, in which I won't shut up, unless I'm upset (although I tend to yell or cry and yell at the same time, instead of acting quiet) or have nothing to say. Also, when a person is, or appears, like they are making fun of someone, my paranoia and anxiety kicks in, causing me to palpitate, because I think they're talking about me. Laughing about me. It really hurts. I also hate it when teachers randomly calls on me, but that never happens anymore, because they know I'm quiet and won't talk. Oh, and my History teacher....Jeez, the guy drives me insane, and actually did plenty times, giving me the urge to throw all of my crap everywhere, knock my desk over, and scream. One time I did finally yell at him. He complains too much. Much more than I do. You might not believe that I could be that agitated by him, and his complaining, but he also judges, and my paranoia causes me to quickly catch hidden messages, which basically are hidden mean messages.
Yeah, I have no idea how I went from bullying to my entire life's story....